Christmas and Family Tradition

Bah Humbug! I have to admit I have the Christmas blues. The Christmas holidays make me sad and realize I don't have a LOVING family. Yes, My fiance and I are a family but it's so hard being around his family and knowing that I can't have the same tradition with my family. My family is so dysfunctional I can write a book about them. I have accepted in my heart that I will never have a normal family. But guess what, it still bothers me! I chose not to go home as usual for the holidays because my family really don't celebrate the holiday. Yes, they cook food but that's about it. Meaning, my mom cook food at her house and try not to let the rest of the family know what she cooked for Christmas Dinner. My sister been raised to think that she's not capable of doing alot of things. So my sister can cook some foods but she pay my mom to cook the foods that my sister is scared to make. My mom charges my sister to cook the food and plus she eat some the food. Oh, my family is so complicated even I can't explain it.